kill rinse repeat

Poking me repeatedly
thump thump thump
Waiting for you to miss and jab me in the neck
The redder your eyes get the dryer your face appears
cheeks like paper I could push my thumbs through
Hold your jaws closed your tongue still
You push and push
I could easily quiet you
Push you in the ground hold you there with my foot
While I kiss someone else
I walk you explode

nothing

the sun bleeding through my eye lids wakes me
i roll you around in my mouth to wake you
i open my mouth so you may stretch
i shuffle to the kitchen
you lay lazy across my tongue
hand gripping my lip
i hold you in my hand while I drink coffee
i think about eating you for breakfast
but i never do
you wonder what you will do today while i'm away
not knowing

MB

I love this women, I would let her punch me in the face.
Why do I say this? Because I don't believe she or anyone really ever loves me.
My GF says she loves me and I believe her, but I'm sure it could stop at any moment.
This is no way to live I'm starting to realize in my forty's. I say none of this as a poor me type of thing, just getting some perspective. I would settle for just a punch in the face though.